Church Hopping: Week 10: House Church

This past Sunday I attended church twice. In the morning, Jacob and I went back to Aley UMC for Palm Sunday. (Kerri and Samantha were attending a "Bunny Brunch.") Again, I enjoyed it, though I was hoping the message would be a little more timely. Instead the pastor continued his series on prayer. Still, it was fun to hear the kids singing. I don’t think there are any opera protoges in the group, (My grandfather used to say about me, "Caruso he ain’t.") but they gave it their all and appeared to enjoy it. The adults certainly did.

In the evening we finally made it to a new house church that some friends of ours are starting. We had tried once before, but sick kids kept us home. As you might expect it was fairly simple. Six families in all: 10 adults and 7 kids. Pizza and salad; singing; and a conversation around the Kingdom of God. It was a little awkward, since most of us don’t know each other real well yet.

Nevertheless, I loved it. I enjoyed the fact that most of us had shakers, so that we could join in the music. Few of us did – I felt horribly nervous, since my rhythm is questionable at best – but the option to participate a little more was nice, a step toward what I want. The conversation was good also, even though it, too, was full of awkward silences. We seemed to hone in on the fact that the Kingdom always seems to run counter to expectations. It wasn’t what the religious authorities expected. It wasn’t what the disciples expected. It still isn’t exactly what we expect. We have an almost natural tendency to co-opt the Kingdom, assigning values and motives that aren’t natural to it. Fortunately, Jesus is patient and willing to correct our image of the Kingdom as often as is necessary.

Ten weeks, ten churches (I think.) I think the hopping is drawing to a close, and I’ll post some thoughts in a bit.

A Response: Does Prayer Change God’s Mind? (Part 3)

Continuing on, I’d like to try and talk about faith. It usually comes up in the following question: Why doesn’t prayer work every time?

Sometimes we know why before we even ask. I mean, are any of us surprised when God doesn’t get us out of a speeding ticket or some similar situation? We hope for a little kindness, a little mercy; but we don’t really expect it. We made our bed, and we know we’re probably going to have to sleep in it.

But there are other times when this is a legitimate question. Why did this marriage fail? Why did that child die? Why did this have to happen now, or ever? Why didn’t prayer work? These are real questions that can shake a person to the core of her soul.

Unmeasurable damage has been done by those whose answers have been poorly constructed. The faith card – the one that says God fails to respond because the person praying has too little faith – is perhaps the most harmful, for it turns prayer into a means of abuse. Prayer is meant to bring comfort and hope, yet with this callous answer, prayer is transformed from a conduit of grace into one of guilt. Rather than freeing the one who prays, the weight of doubt and self-hatred is added to the burden that first drove the individual to prayer.

The very act of praying is one of the surest evidences that faith exists. One doesn’t pray to a God who isn’t there or who doesn’t listen or who can’t respond. (Does one?) Prayer is the perhaps the fundamental work of faith. It is, for example, the first active step of faith for the evangelical. His faith begins with a prayer of repentance. Prayer is faith’s breath, its heartbeat, its first evidence of life.

Jesus himself said that our faith didn’t need to be great in order to affect change. It just needed to be the size of a mustard seed.

Jesus also said, “Whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.”

Told you this path had thorns.

How do I respond? Honestly, I’m not sure. I don’t know why some prayers are not answered. I don’t know how both these statements can be true at the same time.

What I don’t want to do is say something off the cuff, something dismissive and trite in an attempt to explain Jesus’ words away. When Jesus made these statements, he spoke truth to those listening. And when the Gospel writers included them in his book, he, too, was communicating truth to his readers. Somehow, that truth (Perhaps I should say those truths. While I am certain that Jesus and the gospel writers were both communicating truth, it may be unfair and inaccurate to assume that Jesus and the gospel writer were communicating identical truths.) can be pulled forward thru time and culture, and it can say something to us, something equally true now as the original was then, something consistent with and connected to Jesus’ words and the gospel account.

Unfortunately, I haven’t the foggiest what that is.

So there you go. I hope this wasn’t too anticlimactic for you. It may not be profound, but I assure you it is honest. May God have mercy on me.

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Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 1

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 2

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: A Poetic Interlude

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 3

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 4 (Last)

A Response: Does Prayer Change God’s Mind? (A Poetic Interlude)

Let me share this wonderful song from the late Rich Mullins. His last album was released posthumously as a two disc set. The first disc consists of acoustic demos recorded by Rich on a portable tape player in an old country church. The second is a tribute album; each of the demos has been fully produced and recorded by other artists. Personally, I recommend the demos over the tributes almost universally.

Do you who live in heaven

hear the prayers of those of us who live on earth,

who are afraid of being left by those we love

and who get hardened in the hurt?

Do you remember when you lived down here

where we all scraped

to find the faith to ask for daily bread?

Did you forget about us

after you had flown away?

Well, I memorized every word you said;

still I’m so scared, I’m holding my breath,

for you’re up there just playing hard to get.

Do you who live in radiance

hear the prayers of those of us who live in skin?

We have a love that’s not as patient as yours was,

still we do love now and then?

Did you ever know loneliness? Did you ever know need?

Do you remember just how long a night can get

when you are barely holding on and your friends fall asleep

and don’t see the blood that’s running in your sweat?

Will those who mourn be left uncomforted,

while you’re up there just playing hard to get?

And I know you bore our sorrows.

And I know you feel our pain.

And I know that it would not hurt you less

even if it could be explained.

And I know that I am only lashing out

at the one who loves me most.

And after I have figured this song out

what I really need to know

is if you who live in eternity

hear the prayers of those of us who live in time?

We can’t see what’s ahead and we

cannot get free from what we’ve left behind.

I’m reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears,

all these words of shame and doubt, blame and regret.

I can’t see how you’re leading me unless you’ve led me here

to where I’m lost enough to let myself be led.

You said you’ve been here all along. I guess

It’s just your ways and you are

just plain hard to get.

Hard To Get from the album “The Jesus Demos” by Rich Mullins. (iTMS link icon/Amazon link)

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Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 1

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 2

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: A Poetic Interlude

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 3

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 4 (Last)

A Response: Does Prayer Change God’s Mind? (Part 2)

In Part 1 I actually took a stance. None of the both/and stuff I’m so fond of. I actually drew a line in the sand: Prayer can change God’s chosen course of action.

Don’t get me wrong. I’m not stepping into some foolish extreme, either. You won’t hear me say that prayer always changes God’s mind, nor are you likely to hear others say that prayer never changes God’s mind, (though I think this latter position is held in many hearts, if not minds.) No, the Greeks have taught me better than that. Virtue generally lies in the mean between extremes.

I realize this is a more difficult path. Extremes are simple; they require less thought. They promise much, but like most shortcuts they ultimately become dead ends that leave you lost and low on gas in a seedy part of town.

Having chosen a thorny path on which to walk, questions scratch at my legs with every step: If mine is a God who responds, why doesn’t he respond every time? What determines how and when and if God chooses to respond? How can you maintain that God is just and loving when prayer can make him seem so capricious? These and others questions must be navigated carefully lest the thorns dig deep and ensnare us. I’ll start with what is for me an easier one.

The question goes something like this: If God is unchanging, the same yesterday, today and forever; then how can prayer change God’s mind? Well, to say that God is unchanging does not necessarily imply God’s course of action is written in stone to the last jot and tittle. This is but another extreme, which allures us at first glance and abandons us in the end.

Instead, consider what it means for God to be unchanging. Surely one can remain steady in character and unwavering in nature and yet still have plenty of room for choice in one’s course of action. As a father I love both my children, yet I still have the freedom to treat each one differently. In fact, is this not a better expression of love, to treat individuals as individuals?

Furthermore, I can even respond differently to the same child from one day to the next, yet my love for that child is unchanged. I’ll be honest: I’m usually searching by trial and error for the best response. But God does not err/ The Father of Lights gives only good and perfect gifts.

Another illustration: There are many kinds of trees, each different from the others. The mighty oak is tall and strong, the very model of a tree. Nevertheless, the gentle willow is no less a tree even when it is being blown violently by the wind.

Why do we tend to assume that God is an oak? When talking about prayer, perhaps God is more like the willow. Perhaps our prayers join the intercessions of Son and Spirit-Wind to form a breeze which can cause our willow-God to weep and bend his branches low to the earth in order to touch us, men and women of dust?

The Exodus tells us that God heard the groaning of the Jews in Egypt and bent low to free them. Is that not also a picture of Christ, the God who wept?

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Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 1

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 2

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: A Poetic Interlude

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 3

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 4 (Last)

Polyp Man

So, the sinusitis crap I have been suffering thru for the past couple years hasn’t been sinusitis at all. It has been nasal polyps, further complicated by a deviated septum. No wonder the antibiotics and decongestants had little or no effect.

Two months before my thirtieth birthday I have my first procedure. Ah, to breathe again. Flonase is, indeed, a godsend.

WALP: Connection Blog

UPDATE: I’m going! While composing this very post, I popped over to gmail in order get the the conference link. Lo and behold! I had an offer from Randy to share a room. Now, as soon as I can get the conference registration complete, I’m all set.

ORIGINAL POST:
I’m trying to get to the WALP conference next month, but I need to work out some sleeping arrangements to do so. I can’t hack the conference rate of $94/night. So, I’m looking for:

  • A roomie – Male only; sorry if this seems sexist but I – and my wife – have to insist on this one ;)
  • Another hotel/motel with a significantly lower rate
  • A local connection willing to let be sleep on a couch

If anyone can help, let me know. While you’re at it, throw up a comment on the WALP Connect blog.

Church Hopping: Week 9: Aley UMC

Yesterday we went to Aley UMC, visiting with a nurse practicioner from my wife’s OB practice. Similar to Hillside, this was a place that we enjoyed almost in spite of itself. A few bullet points or appreciation:

  • The first use of the liturgical calander we have seen, something I have longed for.
  • I liked the rambling feel to the building: Stairs and hallways and rooms scattered everywhere.
  • It had a real "Tom Fisher" vibe to it. (This comment doesn’t have to make sense to you.) I’m sure part of this is because it was UMC, but there was more to it than just that.
  • Their youth group is running the Labrynth Prayer Path (from Group, I think) for the second year this coming Saturday. Kerri & I signed up.
  • We got a phone call that evening to say, "Thanks for visiting; Hope you enjoyed yourself, and hope to see you again."

Two other, more general realizations occured on Sunday. First, I can accept that Samantha really isn’t going to be much help. I was hoping she would be able to give some sort of meaningful input about the churches we visit. No such luck. She’s all about her buddies. The actual church gets lost behind how many of her existing friends are with her.

Second, Kerri and I still can’t nail down what we’re looking for. The closest I can describe it is Apex meets Aley UMC. In so many ways these two churches couldn’t be more unlike one another, but there are elements of each we really want that aren’t found at the other… much less at the other churches we’ve visited.

Church Hopping: Week 8: Apex Community Church (Part 2)

We went back to Apex a couple Sunday’s ago, and this time we actually made it into the grown up service ;)

In short, we liked it.

A lot.

Here are a few reasons why:

  • Rather than building a new warehouse anctuary, they moved into an existing building previously occupied by a baptist church. I like the recycling.
  • The first song was written by a member of the congregation. The second was a hundred year old hymn. Furthermore, four verses of the hymn were sung, and none were of the "Praise God (ad nausuem)" variety, such as gets tacked into Amazing Grace so often.
  • The preacher had an edge to his sense of humor that I’m pretty suer would draw gasps from some other churches in the area.
  • In front of the old baptismal were a dozen or so canvases with a variety of art painted, I suspect, by members of the congregation.

Apex has a place on our short list.

Poem: At the Arraignment

From The Writer’s Almanac for Sunday, March 13th, 2005.

Poem: "At the Arraignment" by Debra Spencer, from Pomegranate. © Hummingbird Press. Reprinted with permission.

At the Arraignment

The courtroom walls are bare and the prisoner wears
a plastic bracelet, like in a hospital. Jesus stands beside him.
The bailiff hands the prisoner a clipboard and he puts his
thumbprint on the sheet of white paper. The judge asks,

What is your monthly income? A hundred dollars.
How do you support yourself? As a carpenter, odd jobs.
Where are you living? My friend’s garage.
What sort of vehicle do you drive? I take the bus.
How do you plead? Not guilty. The judge sets bail
and a date for the prisoner’s trial, calls for the interpreter
so he may speak to the next prisoners.
In a good month I eat, the third one tells him.
In a bad month I break the law.

The judge sighs. The prisoners
are led back to jail with a clink of chains.
Jesus goes with them. More prisoners
are brought before the judge.

Jesus returns and leans against the wall near us,
gazing around the courtroom. The interpreter reads a book.
The bailiff, weighed down by his gun, stands
with arms folded, alert and watchful.
We are only spectators, careful to speak
in low voices. We are so many. If we—make a sound,
the bailiff turns toward us, looking stern.

The judge sets bail and dates for other trials,
bringing his gavel down like a little axe.
Jesus turns to us. If you won’t help them, he says
then do this for me. Dress in silks and jewels,
and then go naked. Be stoic, and then be prodigal.
Lead exemplary lives, then go down into prison
and be bound in chains. Which of us has never broken a law?
I died for you-a desperate extravagance, even for me.
If you can’t be merciful, at least be bold.

The judge gets up to leave.

The stern bailiff cries, All rise.

At the Arraignment

The courtroom walls are bare and the prisoner wears
a plastic bracelet, like in a hospital. Jesus stands beside him.
The bailiff hands the prisoner a clipboard and he puts his
thumbprint on the sheet of white paper. The judge asks,

What is your monthly income? A hundred dollars.
How do you support yourself? As a carpenter, odd jobs.
Where are you living? My friend\’s garage.
What sort of vehicle do you drive? I take the bus.
How do you plead? Not guilty. The judge sets bail
and a date for the prisoner\’s trial, calls for the interpreter
so he may speak to the next prisoners.
In a good month I eat, the third one tells him.
In a bad month I break the law.

The judge sighs. The prisoners
are led back to jail with a clink of chains.
Jesus goes with them. More prisoners
are brought before the judge.

Jesus returns and leans against the wall near us,
gazing around the courtroom. The interpreter reads a book.
The bailiff, weighed down by his gun, stands
with arms folded, alert and watchful.
We are only spectators, careful to speak
in low voices. We are so many. If we—make a sound,
the bailiff turns toward us, looking stern.

The judge sets bail and dates for other trials,
bringing his gavel down like a little axe.
Jesus turns to us. If you won\’t help them, he says
then do this for me. Dress in silks and jewels,
and then go naked. Be stoic, and then be prodigal.
Lead exemplary lives, then go down into prison
and be bound in chains. Which of us has never broken a law?
I died for you-a desperate extravagance, even for me.
If you can\’t be merciful, at least be bold.

The judge gets up to leave.

The stern bailiff cries, All rise.

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A Response: Does Prayer Change God’s Mind? (Part 1)

I’ve been rolling this one around in my head for a few days now, chewing on it when I can let my mind wander. I’ve thought thru Liz’s story and read the Velveteen Rabbi’s post (and the sermon linked in her comments), and it seems like it’s time to share my thoughts.

A popular view is that prayer is primarily about transforming the person who prays. Thru conversation with God a person’s heart and will are changed. We see this in the Psalms. How often does the poet begin full of wrath, indignation or despair only to find his heart changed by the end of his verse? “How long, O Lord,” becomes, “In You will I trust.” Perhaps the most dramatic example in all of Scripture occurs in Gethsemane, where we are allowed to glimpse the very moment of transformation. Jesus prays, “Take this cup from me… yet not my will but yours be done.”

I can buy that.

Even the materialist can buy this at some level. I can imagine him describing prayer as a slightly quirky form of self-help akin to Stuart Smalley sitting in front of a mirror reciting positive affirmations to himself. By engaging in an honest, transparent monologue a man is better able to process the circumstance or relationship which vexes him, and by applying his will and reason to the circumstance in a focused manner he is able to discern and implement a response or attitude that is better than the one held previously.

The theist would obviously describe the process differently even if she holds to the same result. She may say that in prayer God speaks, though rarely in a conventional sense. Regardless, the solution found in prayer isn’t necessarily a product of the self, as it must be for the materialist; rather it may have divine origins. Moreover, the actual process of transformation – that is, the application of the better response or attitude to the circumstance or relationship – may be divinely worked. “God,” she says, “both inspires the idea and empowers the application of that idea.” For her, prayer is more than a matter of personal application. Prayer is a way for God to speak new thoughts and new attitudes into a person’s life.

Like I said: I can buy that… but I can’t stop there.

To stop here is to stop short. I must ask: What of Abram pleading with God on behalf of Sodom? One point of the story may be to highlight Abram’s compassion, but we also see God being persuaded by Abram. We cannot overlook this. And what of Moses pleading with God in the desert? God has decided not to journey with the Israelites to the Promised Land, choosing instead to send only an angel. Yet Moses persuades God to continue traveling with them.

And what of Jesus? How often does he act in response to a cry for help?

No, I must continue on and say that prayer does more than change the one who prays, for ours is a God who hears. More than that, ours is a God who responds. Somehow and for some reason, God can be persuaded by our prayers.

Next, I’ll venture into some of the thorny regions that abound, if one believes prayer actually changes God’s mind.

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Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 1

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 2

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: A Poetic Interlude

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 3

Does Prayer Change God’s Mind: Part 4 (Last)