Poems: Looking In & Love, I Say, Thou Art an Arduous Boss

These two poems were written for my wife, Valentine’s Day 2004. I record them here both to catalogue; (Google has a better filing system that me.); to share.

The first is a simple love poem.

looking in

i am swallowed up

by eyes deep with compassion and mercy

reaching out

i am paralyzed

by skin soft as angels’ wings

going forth

i am overjoyed

by love’s companion at my side

Valentine’s Day 2004 was a low point in many ways. The second poem, a sonnet, reflects the long season of trial.

Love, I say, thou art an arduous boss,

Denying me choice and comfort at times,

For all my joys thou dost with hers entwine.

Yet, in these, the low days of pain and loss,

You grant deeper joys, ones surpassing time,

Pleasures set free from this harsh circumstance.

Her warm embrace, my soul cupp’d in her hands,

Sets me free, far beyond the sin-wrought crime

That unleashed this long harsh season of strife.

I am free! in the one I call my wife.

RCL: Year A: Sixth Sunday of Easter

[This week's Lectionary Readings]

“If you love me, you will keep my commandments. And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Advocate, to be with you forever. This is the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him. You know him, because he abides with you, and he will be in you.

”I will not leave you orphaned; I am coming to you. In a little while the world will no longer see me, but you will see me; because I live, you also will live. On that day you will know that I am in my Father, and you in me, and I in you. They who have my commandments and keep them are those who love me; and those who love me will be loved by my Father, and I will love them and reveal myself to them.“ [The Gospel of John 14:15-21]

At house church we concluded our discussion with the Gospel reading, and as we discussed the text Kerri made a wonderfully subversive connection with a song sung earlier that evening. We had been speaking about obedience to Christ, and I had shared Claude’s story of the dysfunctional African eschatology with which he grew up. From here Kerri turned Better Is One Day (Amazon/iTMS icon) on its head. In case you are not familiar, the chorus is adapted from Psalm 84:

Better is one day in your courts

Better is one day in your house

Better is one day in your courts

Than thousands elsewhere.

I don’t know what Chris Tomlin had in mind when he wrote the song, but the common reading of this song is with a view toward heaven, saying in essence, ”Better is one day in heaven, than a thousand stuck here on earth.“ Perhaps, however, this is not about heaven, but rather about obedience and following God in the here and now of life on earth. ”Courts“ is a kingdom phrase, and I think a better reading of the song might be, ”Better is one day following God and ushering in God’s Kingdom, than a thousand spent in pursuit of something else.“ This is not a chorus of escapism, but one of mission. With this in mind, listen to the song again.

One thing I ask, and I would seek to see your beauty,

To find you in the place your glory dwells

Whomever has ears to hear, let them hear.

The Both/And of Transiton

My wife and I have been reading Out of Bounds Church? and a frequent topic of our resulting conversations has been the both/and nature of this present age. Furthermore, I keep stumbling across the same train of thought in the Blogdom. For example: Bigbulkyanglican shares this:

Yesterday I receive  a blessings/thank you card which seemed to sum it up quite brilliantly:

you did not concentrate on “what” I should believe but on “how” I should experience God’s love for me, and then how I should respond in love.

I think this sums up what we need to offer to SOME people searching for faith who would not respond or find faith in the more directive but no less appropriate approaches such as Alpha and Emmaus.

And Waving or Drowning? in his chapter by chapter review of McLaren’s The Last Word and the Word After That, shares this:

The statement I want to focus on, however, comes from Carol, Dan’s wife.

“It’s kind of strange,” she said, almost whispering, “to think that what might help our daughter’s faith could actually hurt mine and that what helps my faith – having everything clearly defined and at the core at least, not changing – could actually hurt our daughter’s faith.”

That is a very powerful statement that personally I need to keep in mind. The questions that get me excited about being a follower of Jesus are, in some cases, the very same questions that terrify others. Sometimes I forget that and barge ahead.

We are in an age of transition. Some are still firmly planted in the passing culture; others have jumped into the emerging culture with both feet; and still others find themselves in the region where the two still overlap. What I must remember – and this is probably a caution that all ought to heed – is that none of the above places are better or worse than the others. It’s like arguing that urban life is better than rural life. Nonsense! They are simply different. One may appeal more to me than another, but that doesn’t make one morally superior to the other.

A friend of mine was telling me about a sermon series he heard earlier this year that has really connected with him. The series hook was a five letter acronym, with very practical, concrete action items. The acronym ties into his work life, so the message is routinely reinforced in a subversive kind of way. It has been with him for a few months now helping to focus and drive his life.

I was glad for him, but at this point I have to confess: Such a style and method have no appeal to me. This sort of approach doesn’t inspire me or fan the flames of my faith. My gut reaction, therefore, is to denigrate the approach; but that would be wrong.

Different isn’t worse and different isn’t better. Different is simply different. Some may not find God at a purpose-driven, seeker-sensitive mega-church; but others will. Some may not find God at an ancient-future, digital-liturgy, house-church; but others will. In this Age of Transition from whatever was to whatever in coming we must allow room for both.